You stare but you don't see what lies in front of your eyes.

You stare and you do nothing else that stares.

Somehow the time you spent staring seems more intense than if you'd spent that time reading letters, words and sentences that mean nothing to you right now.

The contradiction lies in the fact that you should have control of yourself. You should make yourself read those letters, those words those sentences, because you know that one day you will want to know what they said. That day is not far away. Shame on you that your curiosity is always beaten by laziness.

But, right now, you don't really care.